Disaster.

Since the day you went away, little by little, stuff that reminds me of you went away too.

Like my old room that you help me paint.

I've moved.

Like the only food that you introduce to me.

I had food poisoning eating it and now I can't even think about it.

Like the Iphone 3 we used.

I am now using 4.

Like the acer laptop is using your name as the password.

I am now loving my new Mac.

Like the card I used to use to pay for expensive food when we go out with my brother.

I now use a better card.

Anyway, it is too many to list down.

but the point here is.

Whatever reminds me of you is now gone. Most of the things just got better. And I am so grateful that from that point my life is changing and I was blessed with so many happy and awesome stuff which I could never ever imagine. It might not be the best, but it is better than what I had before. Everything you gave me turns to be a disaster, even you are a disaster yourself.

And theres only one thing that is still with me, my car.

Which is now in the workshop and has a lot of problem.

The last thing that reminds me of you.

With a new year coming. I really hope by the end of this 2011, there will be nothing that could remind me of you.

You are just a one night nightmare to me, and God has open up my eyes to see reality. And for now, Reality seems to be way way better.

I hope with 2011, everything will be better and awesome !!

Yayyyy me,

EffieB.

2011 is coming.

I am not going to celebrate this new year. But I am looking forward the fun activities in 2011.

Currently one of my dreams is to go see F1 Race. Funny ? YES, I know. But I want to try everything at least once, see everything at least once, go everywhere at least once.

So. theres an F1 Race in April !

BUTTT.

There's also a Disney On Ice !

OKAAAYYYY. So effa like. Hmmmm. Since it is going to be once in a lifetime experience, I want to be at the good seats. You knowww ! But both tickets are expensive, I may have to choose only one. :( Sad right ?

And right now I am still thinking. Race ? OR Disney ?

-.-

I hope I'll make a wise decision.

Still confused,

EffieB.

Bored to death

I only have one thing to emphasize on right now !

ANOTHER 4 DAYS TO GO, THEN I AM DONE WITH MY PRACTICAL ! HOOO YEAAAHHH !

:D

3 days to go.

My results will be out in 3 days.

I am scared.

I am super scared.

I am freaking out.

I hope everything will be fine.

:(

My holiday promises results.

I promise to do a few things this holidays, but it seems so impossible to do anything.

1. I can't plan for 2011 cause I don't know whether I am going to pass all the subjects or not, its devastating to think about it. or maybe ridiculous. I don't know. but I am awfully scared right now.

2. Some plans have to be cancel due to some technical problem and maybe because of human error too.

3. I've been to busy doing stuff. Like my practical. I never thought it would be so freaking hard. but it is actually. It is very very very hard indeed. And I don't even have time for myself or my friend anymore. And I get all cranky after work. lol.

4. My defense mechanism is now dominating my whole life. I don't feel like interacting with people. So I actually hate facebook except for the games. Haha. So I login to play game then I logout. And I hate to pick up calls, except if i think it is urgent. I hate to reply text unless I know I need to reply it. I don't give a damn anymore about my phone. On or Off. It is just the same. So if some people can't reach me thru my phone. Call anybody else you know. (: Sorry.

However, I am always trying to do things that I've planned tho. (:

xx

Its Over.

Well. tomorrow is the day, its officially over. I mean the end, there will be a FULLSTOP. Not that theres none before. But this is the final one. It really is the end, and whatever happens tomorrow is just it. No turning back, and nothing will change after that. You'll be you and I'll be me.

Yes, I was thinking about you the whole week, not just for the whole day. But I've given up long before this, when you said its over. I gave up on you and us, not that tomorrow would mean anything to me. I feel the same about you. And never will I let my guards down just because tomorrow happen. I might not be progressing but I ain't falling either right ? So I am fine with what I am now.

I was not taught by mama & ayah to hate or to judge people as what they seems, everyone deserves a second chance. And I don't hate for things that are happening right now, I am glad it happens and I hope I'll have a better life. And you'll live a happy life, you know like those in fairytales and stuff.

So.

Congratulations and Selamat Pengantin Baru.

Sincerely,

EffieBerry.

Every ending is a new beginning.

Promises are made to be kept.

I've promise so many things in this blog.

Like to tell everything that happen to me

Posting pictures of my new house

Etc Etc Etc

But. I HAVEN'T DONE ANY

I don't have enough time to do anything.

Not even for myself.

Or for my family.

Maybe after finals, before I start my practical.

One day. I want to be someone who kept their promises.

So I WILL.

:)

xx.

EffieB.