Anyway. today would be one of the day that I might look back and say. I'm glad I did it. you know why ? Cause I realize that he is happy, and one part of me is glad that he is happy. FINALLY. I am accepting reality as what it is. and able to smile on it. Even tho this week had been really tough for me. Being naive and lie-able is not cool, but when people lie to me indirectly * they didn't really lie but they keep the truth from me * yes to tell you the truth, it hurts. and i can hardly breath when i realize that. but most importantly, i have to always remember, they did it for a reason. because they care too much about me, and they don't want me to be far from them. but at the same time, they don't know what they want in life. Neither do i. But if life makes me choose, i know who and what i want. but pity them, they don't. I'm glad that I am not so-attached to these people who conceal the truth, because if not I know, I'll be devastated again. And just fyi, I am not mad at these people, they make me realize something, that they are not worth it. And I am really really glad that HE showed me this before its too late. (: Alhamdulillah.
Someday. Somewhere. I know and I believe that the sun will come and brighten my life. and all this things that are currently happening to me will finally make sense at that time. (: Insya-Allah.
Love.
EffieB.
