Ages.

It feels like ages since the last time I wrote.

So for now, I just feel like updating people with some random facts ;

1. I have a picture of a car as my desktop wallpaper.

2. Instead of wondering about what a guy is doing, i prefer to wonder about, how my assignments are doing ?

3. I only go out with a guy when theres a girlfriend too. (: *fornow* HAHA

4. I feel like buying a whole bunch of lomo cameras. which I don't even know how to use.

5. I am super duper excited for raya and istanbul. :DD

6. I prefer to bury my love for you and let it rest in peace, rather than going after the guy i love for almost one year already. :P

7. Everything seems so complicated right now. including my studies. Grrr.

8. Hanging on and doing a great job.

9. Saving money for future use is an impossible thing to do for me, but i am doing it.

10. If you tell me its impossible, i'll tell you. ' Be Me. And you know that nothing is impossible'

Hugs.

EffieB.

Disappointment

today.

I am disappointed with myself and someone else.

but what bother me is the fact that

HE IS IN MY HEAD.

and i am so freaking stress.

i need someone to just make me laugh or to whine RIGHT AT THIS MOMENT.

i have my moot coming up in just a few days, which I havent prepare anything.

i have my poem presentation which is not much, but i still have to give my best.

i got to go through a few things that i'd never been able to do so since forever, but now i am trying so hard to do so.

i want to do so many things but i get tired so fast.

everyday, i feel like i'd live life to the fullest but end up waking up with more and more burden.

i dont know what i need. more time ? more energy ? moreeeeeeeee ? i seriously don't know

so i am disappointed with myself, for procrastinating, for being lazy all the time, for doing something that is less important everyday. and for MESSING UP WITH MY OWN PRIORITY LIST.

YES. I AM A TOTAL MESSED UP RIGHT NOW.

I AM IN HELL.

I just want this to end so fast.

X'(