Failure.

Failure. Theres so many things you can fail on.

Academic

Life

Love

Career

Raising Up A Kid

Friendship

Job

But, I never thought that one day I would failed in love. I failed to open up my heart back. Even to the people who actually deserve a chance. I never thought someday, I'll be worried about my love life, sometimes I am worried about it, the word what if, is always there at the corner of my mind. but what if is only for losers. I can't keep holding on to what if. Maybe because I've never been so alone for this long, I don't go out much with guys, I don't go fool around this time. I let go of everyone, every single guy that ever came, or maybe I didn't let go, I just pushed them out. What is wrong with me ? If I say they are not good enough for me, I am lying, cause they are waayyy wayyy better than I am. Maybe I'm scared, cause I didn't know what went wrong the last time. And things can happen again if I do the same mistakes over and over again. Theres no point of trying cause if in the end you'll end up losing. Righhttt ?

Lets just forget about failure, and love for now. I have better things to worry about ! MY FREAKING FUTURE ! Exam sucks.

Stuff

If he is stupid enough to walk away, be smart enough to let him go.

Say no more.

I don't know why I upload this picture, but I just feel like doing it. HAHAHA.

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when you know things will never be the same again.

Hi. My name is Effa.

See I am green, big, scary and obviously I have more than 6 pax (: * guys envy me a lot *

I used to be a fat and plump girl.

but

In this modern era, you can't be fat and plump to go through life, so I decided to change and be the new me.

Love it or hate it. This is the new me.

Ohh, don't be scared to say hi. cause I won't bite.

Love.

EffieBerryHulk

Kuat

Effa. Jadi kuat.

Keep yourself together.

You've been through almost 6 months on your own. You can do it!

You've did it once, and you can do it again.

Tadaaa

Today, I realize one thing !

I really really like you. and I really think that you are worth it.

AND

I actually think that you are worth my time and I would do anything to have you.

OMG!

You are awesome.

And I am bending my rules for you ! What have you done to me ? You see how worth it you are ! OMG. OMG. OMG.

xx,

EffieB.

Lupa

Its funny when you feel left behind, or forgotten by people whom you always remember.

Maybe its not funny actually, its sad.

But yeah, it happens. To everyone even the "winners" and of course for "losers" too.

I guess I'll have to cope with it right ?

Anyhow, right now I'm trying not to depend on people much.

One day, I'll have to go through stuff alone right ?

or maybe someday I might have to go through stuff alone.

But for now, I am still glad theres people who still cares and remembers me.

And people who didn't change even after they have a boyfriend.

Thank you so much guys.

life left me hanging

Hmmm.

At one point, life left me with two choices.

1. To tell someone with a girlfriend, that I like him.

2. To tell someone who doesn't have a girlfriend, that I love him.

Yes, two different choices, with two different emotions. And I thought life was suppose to be complicated but not hard.

So, after a few days of thinking, I would like to ignore both options. AND now I wish that I have one of those fairy godmother like Timmy's to make my wish come true.

Well, I wish that things will be the same again ! like how it use to be, before I get involve with this two someone. HAHA.

But. unfortunately, life is not that easy. So right now, i am choosing what to think about and what not. So that I won't be a slave to my thought. HAHA.

Okay. I'm rambling.

Goodbye !